College College College!

I feel a little guilty, i didn't blog the other night. I wasn't in a very good mood, and to be quite frank i'm still a little peeved. Just a couple issues within these walls that i just need to pray about and hope it to get better, even though I want to just say "i'm done" and walk away. The feelings of wanting to just up and leave are coming back again, I was hoping i could continue to allude them, I planning on continuing to ignore them. Anyways, on to today, we went to a assembly during second period! I kind of had a mental panic attack, thinking about how college is creeping up on me. I still have worries that i will not get into the college of my choice due to me not trying as hard as I can. I also have to figure out when I can take the ACT and SAT, also when I can take my college duel credit courses. When they say your junior year is your most stressful year, they are soooooo not lying. I'm extremely happy that tomorrow is FRIDAY, I have a much needed weekend coming at me, and a MUCH needed break next week after Tuesday. Although, with breaks from school comes projects and multiple chapter readings, which just makes the stress OHHH so much better! But you know what helps? Blasting music through the house, and just sitting there blogging about my feelings and SINGING (at the top of my lungs). Oh and playing skyrim, ripping some dragons heads off helps too. I just feel like i'm angry all the time, and i'm still unsure why. I hoping its just a phase or something, and in a year from now I will look back at this blog and think "hey now i'm happy", I have a feeling that it will end up happening when I move away, alone, along the coast somewhere or on a island and do what I really want to do. I think the beach is my only medicine (oh and three days grace). Sounds crazy I know, but half the time i think i should be in a nut house anyway. Normally there's no way in heck that I would express these feelings, but i said to my self when i started this blog that its going to help me open up more, even if no one reads it. The writing is progressing slowly but surly, it will get posted some time soon, most likely over the break! I was pretty bummed when i realized that when i walked into fashion design we had a sub, i hope everything is alright with the teacher. Hopefully she will be there tomorrow when we go to her class, I got my longer fabric and am excited to make the purse soon! Ending on a good note, i'm going to start doing a song of the day!

Animal I Have Become-Three days grace! Makes me thing of how I am feeling more than anyone will ever know!